There are times that I just need to put my thoughts and feelings on paper. I don't carve out time, like some do. This type of writing, for me, comes from more of a necessity. Perhaps if I devoted a specific time just for writing I would feel differently. When I write like this I tend to ramble on and on. Sometimes my thoughts just go in circles or one thought will jump to a memory before it makes the leap to another idea; like stream-of-consciousness writing. I may be the only person who could even follow this writing of mine and its ALWAYS full of mistakes, but that is okay because this writing is just for me. I am generally a very private person and I only allow a select few know my inner thoughts and feelings. So, putting pen to paper is very therapeutic during these times.
If I am working on a paper I like to write a brief outline of the information I want to include prior to planting myself in front of the computer. I'll surround myself with a variety of books, notes and have websites readily available then I jump right in. I let my outline guide me as I combine my thoughts and questions with information I have gathered. Editing and revising is something I do constantly in this process. When I finally "finish" it I will walk away for a chunk of time. I need to let it be, to settle my mind a bit before I check it again. Then I will read it a few more times, tweaking as needed, before officially declaring it finished. When I write like this I need to have an outline. It drives me crazy when I am working with someone on a paper and they don't have a plan. I NEED A PLAN, MAN. I NEED A PLAN!
What I am discovering about blogging is that I want to have a plan but it feels better just letting go...somewhat. I will start out with an idea. This idea may have come from something I have read or a discussion I have had or perhaps a lesson I have learned, but I need to have an idea before I even attempt to write something. Why is this? Simply put because, with any luck, SOMEONE will read this. They will read this and they will form an opinion or it will trigger a thought or a million other things. The point is that this IS public. I can't just throw my personal thoughts and feelings out here all willy-nilly! That's craziness. And honestly a blog that sounds more like a formal paper is BORING.
Blogging has become the bridge that connects my two worlds of writing. I am surprised by the joy and the freedom I am feeling from blogging. Remember, this is coming from someone who was very hesitant to even start this! I have turned into someone who now looks forward to it. Even now as I am typing this I am thinking about what I should write next! I didn't see this one coming. Why didn't someone warn me that blogging was SO addictive? I might be turning into a blogaholic! I wonder if anyone else feels the same way?